Randomization other people think is nonsence but only I can appreciate.

Boy, the title's a mouthful, ain't it? Nothing interesting so i'll just make a DETAILED SURVEY of... ME, MYSELF AND I!

What Vivian Loves.

Munkeys.

Cows.

My Ipod.

This laptop.

Bugging the shit outta Mr Ng.

Being me.

HIM.

My friends who are... original, weird, funky, fun, vain, insane, insomnia-struck, scary, probably future psychopaths, adorable, loving, obsessive, potterholics, emocalidocious, sugaraddicts, bookworms...  [[ Most of these may be like total turn-offs for most people, but that's what makes them so unique ]]

I see the perfections in their imperfectness.

What Vivian Loathes.

Balloons. Clowns. DEATH.

My PE teacher.

Bitches.

Unoriginal  spazzez.

Social rejects.

Stalkers.

Bitter, humour-less goons.

Quiet, BORING people.

Freaky plastics that can-can around the corridors in their Baju Kurungs.

People that D I S S my friends.

Pampered BRATZ. Like Michelle Yu.

Perfect people.

People who think their all that. Also like Michelle Yu.

Now, where would the beauty be in picture perfect models? They don't learn since they're all so... there.

Vivian C.

Haha, the last post was to make sure people actually cared. Oh well. Some of it is true though. [[bittersweet]] Posting lyrics of my two fave songs; Catch your wave and Dance Dance.

"Catch your wave"

In the middle of the night

That's when you caught my eye

I chased you round memories

Through the breeze and the trees and you tease me

But hey

They clock's turning around

And you're still playing these games

Its's such a waste to bring me down, down, down

Don't bring me down cause

Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave

Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you

Hey girl, you've got an undertow

Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go

When I turned sixteen

That's when I started to dream

I chased you round memories

Through the breeze and the trees and you tease me

But hey

Well every princess has her knight

And i'm still in it for the fight

Not givin' in, I'm gonna win, win, win

I'm gonna win cause

Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave

Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you

Hey girl, you've got an undertow

Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go

I'm never gonna let you go

Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave

Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you

Hey girl, you've got an undertow

Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go

Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave

Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you

Hey girl, you've got an undertow

Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you

Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you go

I'll never let you go

Alright

"Dance Dance"

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse

Barely stuttered out

"A joke of a romantic or stuck to my tongue

Weighed down with words too over-dramtic

Vs. "no one should ever feel like..."

I'm two quarters of a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

[Whispered:] We're going into D-minor

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery love me

You always fold just before you're found out

Drink up its last call

Last resort

But only the first mistake and I...

I'm twp quarters of a heart down

And i don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so i'll write them

So you need them just to get by

Why don't you show me the little bit og spine

You've been saving for his mattress, love

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

If they knew how misery loved me

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress (mattress, mattress)

I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)

Dance this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

You can blame Pete Wentz for the explicit lyrics. [[ He writes the music ]]

Vivian C.

Mothers are evil. My sister is the biggest retarded kiss up EVER. Sometimes I think that:

1) loves my sister more

2) never takes time to UNDERSTAND me. First thing you get when you wake up, is a big fat nagging.

3) I get at least 3 scoldings per day; one for breakfast, lunch and dinner. That's just the minimum amount of times.

4) never encourages me. All she thinks i'm good at is FAILING.

5) Abuses me. It hurts.

6) Wants everything to be done her way.

7) Hates my friends and discriminates them.

8) Whatever I do will NEVER be good enough.

9) Too sensitive, never listens to what I want. Its always what she THINKS is best for me.

And finally...

10) just doesn't KNOW me.

Vivian C.

[[ Depressed Munkey ]] I'll be ok, someday... maybe...

The party rocked! Hannah, Zoey and I did stuff.... Which was watch The Doll Master, its this really cool horror flick thats about this doll sculptor that was accused of murdering his girlfriend and gets killed by 4 villagemen. The doll of his creation than seeks revenge, possesing a woman who owns a doll factory and tracking down the descendants of the people that had that innocent man killed. Its all very gory and scary. Hannah and Zoey went "Ahhhhh!" I was all, "I have wimpy friends." "Shut up Viv!" Now, tell me why I just spent one whole paragraph on the movie? Its a fairly popular one, no need to explain it.

Hannah's mum suggested we watch a horror flick while its still day, I wanted to turn off the lights, but no such luck. Zoey snatched my cell phone away from me and started playing with it. Here's how the convo went [[ Quite interesting ]]:

Viv: Zoey, give me back my cell. [[ says in soothing tones ]]

Zoey: No.

Viv: Zoey, is this because you don't wanna watch the show?

Zoey: Err... yeah.

Viv: Fine by- AHHHH!!

A huge close up of a very freaky doll just appeared on screen and Zoey was playing virtual tennis on my cell, Hann just sank lower to the ground... Zoey was all, "We're watching American Werewolf next!" Its this very funny-scary flick. Sorta a cross between the two genres. More funny than scary. Very perverted. Then the pizza came! Ordered too much food... Stupid fly kept snipping at my tartar sauce. Ate candy and drank fizzy drinks non-stop. HYPERNESS. Had to help Hann wash dishes then. "When we go to college, IF we go to the SAME college. We should be roommates, we connect very well." Which is very true.

I kept walking upstairs and counting the 21 steps they had, freaked Zoey out then Hann. Cause Zoey watched the "Wishing Stairs". Did that on purpose. Tell me, am I evil or what? [[winks]]

Went to Hann's room, pumped up the stereo, raided her closet and DANCED OUR SOCKS OFF, if we were wearing socks. Had several stomach cramps from dancing so hard. Zoey snatched my camera and took pictures. Alyssa came and watched 'Pink Panther' stupid show, so damn funny. Clutched stomach many times. Hann took my camera and made a documentary, one where I was staring at *ehemehem* . She was all, "Here is Vivian  staring at *****. She's in love with him." Zoey's all, "***** ***!" i'm like, "NASRI!" "KASHIF!" So weird...

Went online on Hann's account and BUGGED KASHIF [[Hann's ex]] He was so freaked out, poor dude... Complied a list of 'How to torture the male species' includes, telling that guy another GUY likes him, making him seduce someone, setting him up on a blind date... it goes on....

Went home before we could do the cards though, sad.... Had dinner at the ship in SHORTS. Do you realize how cold it is in the ship? GAH..... planning another party soon, my house this time! Will post the piccies soon, if i actually work out HOW TO. [[Read first post]]

Vivian C.

The Pros && Cons Of The Person I'm Infatuated With.

Pros...

Tall, well over 6 feet.

 Nice thick mousy brown hair.

Deep dark eyes.

Strong prominent features. Muscular. Funny.

Nice abs and 'somethings I will refrain from saying'.

Does everything cover it?

Cons...

His jerky headed jerkiness.

But i hardly mind, see how whacked that is?

How he makes me think about him, how I dream about him, how I seem to act like an idiot in front of him.

These last three aren't really HIS cons, their mine.

This is efffiiinnn annoying....

Vivian C.